I’ve done so many other things
When people ask me to something, I find they are never impressed with my long list of the other things I’ve accomplished while avoiding their request. Did you pick up bread yesterday? No but I did find that Surplus outlet we couldn’t find last month and I bought a Kayak. It’s 140pm and I’ve doneā€¦ Read More »

I’ve done so many other things

When people ask me to something, I find they are never impressed with my long list of the other things I’ve accomplished while avoiding their request.

Did you pick up bread yesterday?

No but I did find that Surplus outlet we couldn’t find last month and I bought a Kayak.

It’s 140pm and I’ve done a few rapid-fire tasks I’ve been meaning to get to for weeks. I fixed the slow Internet, assigned a static IP for my main computer so my phone can always connect for OBS remote, changed an old USB cable with its replacements I bought last month.

All these and more are filled tasks. They are waiting on a procrastination queue when I am avoiding something and don’t want to feel so useless, I have a number of things that will be easy to start and complete in one go. No two part tasks. None of mine needed follow up so I completed them all and felt accomplishment joy instead of procrastination guilt.

I did manage to make two tiny changes to the customer website that is still Task #1 in its third month of holding. I’ve burned all the dopamine out of it long ago. Two minor tasks is progress but I really need to repeat it 21 days in a row to make it a habit. My current record for continuous work days is still 1. Needs improvement.


In other news, I have continued to ride right on the edge of crippling fear and anxiety about being an Internet personality. I am happy with small growth that gives me the praise and motivation to keep making content without thinking too much about it. I have so many ideas but I move very slowly because the alternative is to think about the future with hope and optimism risks me letting my pride out run my limitations. Small growth is good. I may have 50 new ideas to do and then shut down and quit everything.

It’s a sweet spot I’ve been trying to hit all my life. To be satisfied with my NOW and to be content for as long as I can ride it.

If I overthink beyond today, it’s too much.


Health is not great. Like everything else, my level of avoidance on that front is a legal diagnosis. I don’t deal with anything negative or even potentially negative if I can find a way to say Maybe tomorrow with optimism, then I toss any issues over the wall of tomorrow and the worry goes into cold storage forever or until somebody asks.

I have some health issues both mental and physical but at this moment, I am still avoiding help. I play the odds I might die before my problems insist on attention and they have to amputate something.

That’s how I got dentures.

2pm seems like a good afternoon nap time.

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