I’m Orange Jeff. It’s Wednesday night, and this is my show. It’s still not live.thst step may need the external influence.
I wasn’t going to do one. I was going to give up the goal of it being an obligation but as long as I’m alone, I can write a better version that explains why it …
Itchy. Belchy. Probably not healthy on several levels. The unhappiness period of withdrawal are just another thing to push out if the way and let it be handled then.
I was ready to sleep at about 5pm today. Today’s loop is the third in a row. Emotions are bskanced by having both …
I am in need of the good crash at the end if a binge. The drunks call it a bender. Before discovering meth, I slept a lot. Now I lose track after 2 and so what I think is 3 days awake may actually be more.
I can neither confirm nor deny that I have not been awake if not every night completely, but naos if 2 hours twice a week is what damages my brain and body I suspect.
I keep using words like should… Today is wedneWedn. Valentine’s day. It is possible I did not speak a verbal wird today. I was frustrated bringing my weekend over time that spoils a Monday, but I’ve never made it all the way to hump day.
It is a mental debate with advantages and dusadvadisad you.
I wasn’t going to do the entry. I was going to sleep.
Then I woke up and kept the streak alive.
Now I’m going to bed, sleep will either come, it be postponed by the loop. The nose that clogs that keeps me awake and the enhanced masterbation tewniques I’ve been discovering.
Lots if new types. It isv730pm and if I get one more release, it might be 6 irv7 today.
End of what I suspect will be known as part 1.
Probably less than 10 minutes later I remember each moment is in a lot if different loops. I started using the term to refer to the infinite at both ends repetion of our universe.
Some things loop the same stories forever, and some are retold as new. As I law in bed tonight content but not happy about a half quality nightly show.
Not even a show. A blog post.
I notice something different. It’s a bigger loop which includes the readjustments for the loops of no shit, hard bb shit pellets to almost normal followed by the loose phase very quickly. Like with the other repeating patterns, I seem to have no idea they exist until the loop is soon me and brain connects. The lightbulbs turn off and each new loop is a surprise until it isn’t.
I had committed to sleep with no doubt it would come, and yet I caught mySelf bumping up fresh powder as late as 4pm maybe, after a 2 hour nap. I pause and eventually writing the truths I instinivly normally hide. I tell the truth now and then about the disages. Today, on the Wednesday of either a 3 day run, or maybe 4.
I kept bumping in an attempt to be productive. Having vegged in bed for a long time. I can’t explain why I set myself up to fail.
I have more. I didn’t do the video because I had chosen this end of high sleep to let my teeth soak in the all night version of their detergent. I had no teeth, so I quickly ran down the corridor to the toilet, just in time.a