I didn’t actually wake up this morning and start working right away. More accurately, I turned the ceiling light on and started working right away. I didn’t get to sleep last night although there’s an hour in there around 5:00 a.m. that I might have rested.
The weird thing is I know I was in a good mood today. I started back on my medication both prescription and recreational and I was in an especially good mood. It started off on my social media and I was posting replies and being cute. I started talking to the camera a lot more than usual and that’s always good.
But then somewhere in the 8:00 a.m. hour the dogs started their routine of annoyance. I’m sure they’re not thinking of it as annoyance. They’re thinking of it as a lack of attention that they don’t want to stand for. I expected it was going to happen yesterday actually but yesterday was such a horrible day I’m glad it didn’t.
It usually happens on the first Thursday that their master goes back to work. It takes them a few days to realize he’s not going to be around during the day and so the beautiful obedience that I experienced the first three days is over. they no longer want to just sit and wait for their master. They want attention.
This is just me personifying how I would feel if I was a friendly dog without attention and affection during the week when you become used to it.
So they were being bratty teenagers I suppose. Not wanting to come when they’re called barking more than usual really just demanding attention. I know I posted a few messages to friends solve two problems for customers and tried to sleep around 2:00 to 3:00 p.m. but I don’t really remember much of what I did during the day and I didn’t have anything significant to show for it.
That’s not uncommon though a lot of my days are spent changing minor things on the blog, or the new project, or my live streaming webcams which no matter how many times I find the lies some of their settings I seem to be starting over and refining them the next day. I know I did that quite a bit of that today but one of the weakest cameras got some software upgrades and is now functioning much better.
I’m looking forward to the day that I can afford the Amazon purchase to have the main face camera be able to detect whether I’m at the end of the bed to watch TV or sitting in front of the computer and have it move to keep me in frame.
I also experimented a fair amount with trying to get cameras outside that will still connect Wi-Fi to the server. It occurred to me after several fails that I’m not supposed to be able to do this You don’t really stream camera video at the end of your Wi-Fi’s extended range. I don’t think it’s supposed to work that well.
As I was composing that paragraph above I realized it could be completely wrong. If I can watch Netflix in the chicken coop I should be able to send my camera signal back just as well. By the way, I tested it and I can watch some video in the chicken coop. As I think of it Netflix probably would pause and buffer. I didn’t really test it except to see that it came up.
After the final feeding and the dogs were content I sat down and I worked on the blog some more and that feels productive. Now 8:00 p.m. and he’s not home yet but that’s not too unusual on a Friday. He doesn’t have to go to sleep early so it’s his night to do things.
I remember when there was a night I could do things. Had a car and income and friends and I lived in a city where there were things to do apart from looking at water falling over a rock and going wow.
I do feel a bit weary and tired now and I’m suspecting that I may be a bit of fall asleep if I am not tempted to re-entertain myself before I make the sleep attempt.
Overall I think it was a good day and I’m going to rate the week as good as well. The fact that I ran out of medication and a way to buy it we’re all solved. They were inconveniences, not problems.
I also believe I solved the hacker problem that was bringing my website down everyday. It went on to two upgraded levels of tech support for them to tell me the wrong answers but I solved it on my own eventually. There’s a possibility that my solution has a side effect in that I block something important like Google’s search crawler but I don’t think I’m going to worry about that right now. I’ve never really worried about being in Google up high.
The whole thing is a learning experience and if it wasn’t it wouldn’t be interesting enough to do. I like that. I could work that into a better quote I think.
My biggest problem now is that I’m out of chocolate and munchies and snacks and almost out of food and money. It’s always happens on a Friday. You think by now I’d be better at remembering and preparing but I should also think by now I would understand that saying you would think by now is a moot point.
Yes, I can see the deterioration in my words and phrasing and I think I’d like to go to sleep. I just wish he would have told me whether he’s going to be home before midnight because the dogs keep barking thinking it’s him.
End of Part One
Edit. While I was in a good mood I very nearly did something that I really want to do and have been putting off for a while. I was in a good mood I was happy I was on a roll and just before starting I realized the amount of effort that would be involved to make it good was too much and I gave up on it.
I’m going to blame that on today being Friday the 13th although it has no relevance to that, it seemed like an appropriate thing to blame it on.
I want to add a section to the new website idea or the blog that gets me back into giving away tips and links and reviews to phone and windows and TV products. I know that everyone on TikTok is doing it and they’re getting following and they’re getting fans and I’m one of them for many of the people simple links to web pages that are phenomenal web pages but most people will still never really use is a good example I had so many windows tips that generally users don’t know I’d love to share them.
The problem is, perfectionism. I do not believe in my head that I will be as good as those people and if I try and fail it won’t be fun. Thinking about doing it is fun. Doing it is effort and can be reviewed. Judged. I like to make people smile and earn praise, but my fear of failure is so strong it keeps me from trying.
That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. The truth is somewhere in the middle.
This is the first time I’ve taken a photo of where I’m sitting in my bed as the featured image of the blog post and I think it’s a good idea except that 97.2% of the time I will be sitting here talking to my phone as I write blogs. Oh well I’ll figure something out.
The fun part was on the webcams. I am streaming almost every day all day now and I am fully aware that no one is watching but it’s still an interesting phenomenon the way my brain handles it. I’m talking to myself but like a television host talking to an audience. There could be an audience there is as much chance of that as there is people reading my Twitter posts. It’s like a stand-up comedian in an empty venue and 3 weeks from now somebody happens to mention they saw something that I did.
In any case I was browsing Facebook and happened to click on their version of this day in my history. It was fun today was Friday the 13th several times in the last two decades and a fairly eventful day in other years there were posts from 5 years 6 years 7 years 8 years 9 years 10 years 11 years and 12 years ago and each one of them was worthy of a comment.
I felt like I was reading the news of the day from days gone by and I thought almost enough for a regular bit. I’m trying to start waking up and talking to the camera about my day and my morning and I’m doing it without telling people about it right now because it’s not being judged. It’s fun
I would really like to figure out a way to get past that mental block and so far the tool I’ve been using to avoid it is my understanding of the way my brain works I need to do it with someone I need a co-host but it’s very convenient that I can’t find one because that saves me from having to do it. Sneaky brain. Sneaky