It occurred to me last night while laying in bed… Or maybe it was the day before. The actual days have mixed together a bit over the last week. Partly because of drugs, but also because of my farm life being pretty much the same day over and over.

If nothing of significance happens to landmark a day, it isn’t really stored in my memory. The funny part of this, is that sometimes busy days or days with significance still don’t get blogged. Sometimes I just don’t remember or feel like blogging and then a life event isn’t given a date. Without my blog, many things would be like they never happened.

Is life significant of nobody remembers it, and then a tree fell on me and I heard it but by the time I got home, I forgot to tell anyone so did it really fall? I suppose a large things in our universe happen without being witnessed and they obviously still happen. In my life if things are written down or journalized in some way they still happened, but if I don’t remember them it’s as good as if they hadnt.

All of this preamble is to explain how I wanted to make sure I made note of my shower and hair wash. However since I don’t think I’ve blogged about why that is significant to me, the point is moot.

In unrelated news, I figured out why I’ve been blah this week. It’s the weed. I had edibles several times and sleep was disrupted but the mood comedown the following days was subtle but in hindsight from a time after it cleared, I feel worse after two days of weed than I do giving up meth.

When I realized it was the weed, I remembered having figured this out dozens of times previously in my life. I know this will have no long term effect on my decision to use weed again next time.

It is all in the past now. The story of blogs and legends.

Blog. Getting other people to remember things for you.