It’s taken me over a year to hit this milestone on life. After 5 or 6 frustrating failure online, each with multiple weeks between I tried again, this week I came to source.
I am sitting at a cubicle in the Service Canada having just completed the paper application for my Canada Pension. I won’t get much because I stopped filing taxes about 25 years ago. Still, my budget is usually about $200 a month below comfortable and the house pays for a lot of food I eat.
They would love enough to allow to move out or contribute. Subtle passive aggressive comments do not go unnoticed. Each one a little emotional stab to my heart.
I’m reaching the age of potential regret. The point in life where the choices I made finally catch up and have consequences. Drug use, diet and exercise effects have eluded me so far. I expected to not be this healthy at 61. I’m shocked at how young I look and feel.
I attribute it to no alcohol, no tobacco and lots of water, and that seems to have overcome a diet of mostly sugar and carbs.
I only started smoking non tobacco products after 53 and I’m still virtually wrinkle free with solid arms. I’m not looking forward to being loose skinned and old looking.
I still have healthy hair that is barley gray in areas. I’m not close to what I imagine I’d be at 61. I’m not the 61 that used to be the norm. Neither are most of my 60 plus age peers. 61 used to show a lot older I think, but maybe that’s from the perspective of a 30 year old.
People laugh at the Chinese culture because they seem to be either youthful or old, almost as if it happen overnight at some point. I’m glad aging is gradual and I get the chance to like how I look each morning. I hope it’s the same when my neck develops valleys and my purple veins show through.
I’m certainly not looking to die yet. It’s the sick or injured life I feR most. I made it this far with only one broken bones and not too many memories of bad times.
Life is just a notch about content, and that is way above some points in my life. Now I can start getting paid for being old. Wild.
And people hate socialist government. Ha!
