In my head, I am now singing the lyrics that I remember from Ray Stevens’s song The Streak. Oh Ethel you’ve been mooned.

In today’s case however, I am referring to the streak of being very productive and getting a ton of stuffed up from about 5:00 p.m. till midnight. It’s a new time frame for me as I’ve pretty much been a morning person much of my life and since I moved to the farm I’ve been an afternoon person more. I get up and I do my morning routine, which despite being called a routine is quite different every day. It still contains the same tasks each morning. It’s just the order or priority that I give to them seems to change. I wake up and something catches my attention that starts me either posting new Snapchat videos or scrolling and listening on Instagram or Facebook. Sometimes I get up and work on the computer. Sometimes I go back to sleep for a while. 

Been around 8:30 or so I go do the cows and the chickens and film some videos and then return to my bed where I either nap immediately or work on the videos and messages and then nap. 

Then I have the period in between 10:30 and 3:30 at which time I have to start the routine over and go out 10:00 to the animals again. When I return this time, I figure out what I’m doing for dinner and I begin the more productive portion of my day. I said at the computer and actually do stuff. 

Every time I sit down at the computer my intent is to work on a customer website and every time I end up doing anything else. It has become a laughable routine that seems to work for everyone except that customer. If it weren’t for her, I might not stand at the computer with the optimism and intent. It’s almost a symbiotic relationship between failure and success. I have to fail at 1:00 to succeed at literally everything else. 

That’s a terrible statement to make because it might have just ruined that working relationship. Pointing it out to myself and how absurd it is may have made it less useful. We’ll see what happens later tonight. Perhaps it’s time to actually finish the work on her site rather than using it as a scapegoat or technique to get other things done. 

It seems I always have to have a little bit of guilt in my life in order to do things and that doesn’t sound right.

Whatever the case, it has lead to a productive week improving my daily videos to a new level, at least in my mind. Learning new techniques in animation and playing quite a bit with AI. Working and finishing work for a different customer. 

Managing my usage up or down slightly in the morning has kept me away from the down thoughts and who boosted my mood with the up thoughts. I’ve been out of cookies over a week and don’t think I’ll restock for a while. This was my low income month but I did have chocolate for most of it. I will run out of that today and probably won’t get to buy replacements until Tuesday or Wednesday. 

I tried to cut back on my Orange Crush pop intake but it is nice to have an option instead of just water all the time. Room temperature water. I’d say I’m drinking only about 20 to 30% of the water that I drank last year. I’ve had numerous problems with dehydration in the past month or two and I can’t attribute it for sure to the quality of my drug. Not even may come from the fact that I’m just not drinking as much water. I want to but I no longer have a fridge in my bedroom and water from the tap isn’t appealing so I drink from a big jug of water in my room and the pump operates at quite the slow speed. We’re previously I had a morning task of filling 10 bottles of water and leaving them in the fridge, now each time I want some water it’s the process of waiting a minute or so while the pump distributes it into a water bottle for me. 

It seems a petty inconvenience but unconsciously it adds a step to drinking water and my brain tends to not think about it the same way and so I don’t drink as much water. Plus I missed the cool fridge water. 

I think some of my mood swings and health issues are more related to my diet than my liquid diet. On the days where I have eaten a sufficient variety calories I tend to feel better and on the days when I don’t eat it all or have a minimum, I don’t feel as great. If I don’t have chocolate I feel grumpy and blah. 

No matter how I feel I move forward, tend to the animals, get lots of rest, and watch the last of the season finales on TV before bed. 

Rinse, repeat.