I remember the blah workday

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Today I started with the last of my focus medication. A smaller dose. It faded around 2pm and since 4pm I have basically done no additional work. I remember this feeling. I can’t lock in and work. Even the easy…

I remember the blah workday

Today I started with the last of my focus medication. A smaller dose. It faded around 2pm and since 4pm I have basically done no additional work. I remember this feeling.

I can’t lock in and work. Even the easy tasks seem to difficult to tackle.

Even writing this blog post was difficult. I wanted to say a lot, but as soon as I started, I didn’t want to anymore. Staring into the screen as my mind has too many thoughts to pay attention to any of them.

I just want to go home. Then I remembered going home requires a 2 hour bus commute.

I also don’t really have a home. At the end of the month, I won’t have one.

At this stage, I want to quit this experiment. I want to run away. Niagara is still there for me.

Tomorrow I will be medicated again and not feel this way. The loop continues.

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