When the pandemic was not yet fully in lockdown, the company paying me a $600 a month contract concluded suddenly. My rent was $600 a month.In a panic, a couple from my past graciously offered me a bedroom in their home left vacant by their now college age son. Unfortunately that didn’t work out as hoped and just before being homeless I found another bedroom to occupy in Niagara Falls. This is where I am now.It was a huge adjustment but the price was one I could just manage. I was in charge of paying the Internet and Electric bills which amounted to about 250 a month. My income from hosting barely covered it and food so some weeks I went hungry.I lost all my onsite money because I’d previously given up my car and all my customers were now 3 hours away by transit. Less income.My money from hosting is reasonably stable but every third month was lower than the other two so I had to plan things out. I don’t plan things out well .It’s been nearly two full years here and although it’s not been an overly happy time, it’s been manageable and occasional help from friends and family have been needed, I survive.In November, the Niagara power company expired an assistance promotion and the all new bills would be for the un-subsudized rate of around $350 instead of $150.I wasn’t able to keep up and fell behind, paying portions instead of the full amount owed. Obviously this isn’t sustainable and today they need a $1500 payment to literally keep the lights on.I have arranged the subsidy rate moving forward that should help but as of Friday I may be leaving in a hot dark angry home. The landlord is on pension and shocked I left it this long.I’m so depressed that even thinking of solutions is hard. I have no credit due to previous circumstances and mostly spend days in bed sleeping or crying.I tell the landlord I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry. He worries. He yells. Rightfully so. It depressed me another level. I can’t bare letting people down, and utility disconnection is a bad one. It must be resolved… And it will be. I just don’t yet know how.