I don’t spend a lot of time in darkness so I had to change the lyric. Instead of being really depressed, I just get in kind of a funk that lasts a few days. It comes and goes.

I think what actually happens is when I go off my Paxil I start to think more about life and my situation and then when I get back on it then happiness returns I still get to think about how the medication is keeping me from worrying about depression and life and the situation so it comes up every time I have a spare moment.

My days are not currently being filled moment to moment with something to do and so the in-betweens allow my mind to wander and realize that I’m not really happy. I’m just pretending to be happy which works out okay most of the time because of the drugs.

It’s 4:00 now and I was surfing the internet on my bed using my phone and it paused for a moment and that was long enough to realize it’s not an ideal situation.

So my solution is to get up Walk 3 ft to the right and do more drugs.