I forgot about my YouTube premium payment. I could have sworn it was in the first few days of the month when I expect to have money but I didn’t have enough for it today and so I’m stuck with regular YouTube which is shockingly annoying and I wouldn’t be using YouTube much at all if I had to deal with it like that. The commercials are out of hand. 

But it is the end of the month and that means I’m on my strict no food diet but this time it’s even a little bit worse because I’m out of chocolate, food, money and drugs all at the same time and that rarely happens. Today’s meals consisted of one slice of bread in the morning because I have to have something in the morning to break with bad mouth taste since I don’t get to brush my teeth like regular people and then later on in the day I had 10 grape-sized tomatoes which were quite good and now I’m off to bed with two slices of Kraft processed cheese singles. The staple of starving Jeff frequently. 

I thought I made it without the $45 and SF charge the bank Levy’s on me but it seems like it’s probably going to be there after two days shortage. I hate that they can justify charging me $45 every month almost and sometimes up to $300 depending on it whether it’s that awkward month where I make no money but still have bills and yet the overdraft protection is only $5 a month and they won’t give it to me that seems insane to me. I might be able to get it if I called them but that’s not going to happen.

Only six more weeks and I might have Canada pension deposited into my bank towards the end of the month. I’m not optimistic that it will be as much as $300 which would be ideal. I’m hoping that it is more than 100 but I stopped paying for it at around age 27 or 28 and although I did make a pretty good wage at the time I’m not expecting much and I’ve already kind of promised it to the house which is fair but disappointing cuz it would be nice to be able to afford a car and maybe get a job. 

That’s another one of those things I probably wouldn’t do at this point in my life but I could at least do things if I had a car. 

I’d like to be a background performer and apparently this city is even more popular than Kelowna for filming in BC it’s not as popular as Vancouver of course but it doesn’t rain here so fair number of things are shot in this city apparently The mountains are also still not identifiable as any specific place because it’s not the Rockies. I enjoyed my time as an extras worker in Toronto even though I only did it four times I think. Four times is enough for you to earn back the prepayment you give to the agents and then they stop calling you in favor of new people. Apparently that’s how it works. They only make money on new recruits. I wasn’t good at following up. 

Well I’ve eaten the last slice of cheese so I won’t get stomach cramps on my way to sleep. 

So far they severely lessened amount of drugs I can burn off the side of a pipe have not affected me greatly. Tomorrow will probably be the last of the last but I’m always amazed at how far I can stretch not having any when I look around and I see a glint of crystal in the carpet or most pad or on the side of an old bong. That’s what I lived on today and I got a fair amount of work done later in the afternoon. We’ll see what tomorrow brings.