I ran out ealier than I’d hoped becaue poor planning and careless spending on AI tools I don’t need. Two lost customers and a cash shortage. I have no chocolate, no food, no drugs and no money to but everything. Because I’m poor I prefer to but drugs in a larger quantity that fits in with BC laws and gets the price down.
I can’t today and it’s the first morning in months I woke up naturally without the energy boost I have given myself every morning for 4 months. I made it reasonably well, and tended to my morning chores without any noticable difference. I even sang a little spontanious music which is sometimes a signal that my mood is up.
When I came back to my office I almost fell back asleep, but my plans were to go into the city early and get in a visit to the farmers market with my new activity partner. The one I still have guilty mixed feelings about whether it is the right thing to do. I sprinkle in just enough mean attitude and weirdness so she doesn’t fall in love with me. (grin)
That is only partially a joke. My experiences in life allow me to mask my personality to fit the people I am with, and this woman is vunerable and would be an easy infatuation because everyone else in her life has either abused her, or she does herself. It’s easy to manipulate people who hate themselves just by being nice, which is a totally new and unexperienced thing for her.
So I cancelled with that justification that I can’t be too reliable or she’ll rely on my. She is a groupie type clinger. I can tell. If I let her, she’d attach herself to me and love in without question.
Anyway, I need grocieries so I need to go in anyway, but this way it can be a 15 minute Walmart run, pick up my essentials and come home. But still, I wanted that boost so I pulled out my super powerful LED flashlight and imed it at the dust on my desk. Lots of little specs of crystal catch te light as if to call out to me. HERE! HERE! Pick me.
It’s pretty awesome how a seck the size of a period can still burn into a nice cloud. Smaller than usualy, but 10 specks is still a good motovator to go buy cholocate and food
