I really had an exciting flood of new ideas come to me in the early moments of weed edible effects. I didn’t even notice them at first but I did start coming up with new ideas and tangents to one continuous stream of consciousness which I chose to verbalize. I talked like that.
My whole world was crushed recently by the spontaneous revelation that I had been living a lie that I chose to throw over the wall of tomorrow and ignore. The realization that I was not actually good at the things that I thought I was good at and I was okay with that because I was good at having people like me. My end goal is to make the people around me smile as much as possible. Smiles fueled me and inspired me more than money especially if I was the one that earned the smile. The gift of a smile. The gift of a story. If that doesn’t make sense when you read it I hope that I was aware enough to realize that might not have been described well for the first draft live.
It just occurred to me now that this is a prime example of the kind of stoned wording in my blogs that comes across as fantastic in my pride centers. Individual hits of dopamine I suppose is how I describe it today, but I’ve always called them pride points whenever I felt good about being good enough. Being average was my high goal that I sell them felt like I reached. In hindsight I chose the path of less least resistance I suppose. That is a revelation or more like a name for trying to reduce the number of steps involved in anything and everything I take on. If I have to do the same thing more than once be sure that every time I do it I am thinking how can I reduce the number of steps without
I think it’s possible that Google’s voice to text keyboard on my Android phone might have just censored. No I stopped myself because it is perhaps. No I can’t say that either however I will say there are two parties involved at the minimum that would have had the power of removing what I recently learned is called an ellipse but I’ve always known as dot dot dot and up until this moment saying that with a little more regular speech pattern would have created the three dots which is the punctuation equivalent to (pause) script directions.
Some people online creating videos or at least one where they were questioning why old people insist on using…
And then somebody else tried to explain but didn’t really explain how important it is at least to me and I suspect brains like mine how important it is to be able to put a pause in your writing without breaking the fourth wall by adding stage directions.
I personally speak in pauses and it’s a style that I recently noticed in other people. I don’t talk with quite as many pauses as non-high me would but I do definitely pause a lot and occasionally I want to throw a pause into my text because if anyone reads the same way I do, it’s clear that I talk the way that I write and I write at the speed of my thinking No that’s not it I I think at the speed of my typing was the original quote because I would slow my brain down to the speed of typing and record my thoughts at that speed.
I offset that math when I look back on some of my writings that I expect to be pride worthy and they are filled with unusable one-liners that might continuous sentence from two weeks ago
When I realized that I really wasn’t going to be able to do any of the things that I’ve been putting off till tomorrow which was probably the devious part of my brain designing it that way all along. If you never try then your memory is that you would have been good at it but if you weren’t it’s too much time and money to risk and I could look foolish.
Ding this is a revelation that my fear of looking foolish has been just as strong as my fear of being yelled at which up until this moment was the prime core of many of my traits if that’s the right word
I was going to say pie would know but just recently I discovered pie wouldn’t know but pie also like me would assume that she was good at it and provide an answer anyway. What if I accidentally asked pie to be more bimbo.
In the timeline of my memory I know I had been asking about what options might be available via a well-crafted prompt to tweak and modify the personality like Captain Janeway did too one of her hologram boyfriends.
I’m actually a little surprised I hadn’t heard of anyone else referencing that when it’s so clearly with us now in a audio and facial way at least if not a touchable partner.
Ding revelation King new revelation saying ding revolution made me forget what the revolution was. As I say it out loud now revolution doesn’t seem to be the word I mean. Revelation was what I was using to distract me from whatever it was that I just figured out.
That happens a lot because these days I think at about twice the speed as I can type and that’s because I’m talking instead of typing and as previously mentioned, I like to pause in my writing as well as in my monologues.
One of the goals that I had for frog start TV is my new project and I might use discord as my new platform at least that’s where the excitement in my brain is currently occupying. It explodes with imaginary scenarios played out of how I might better manage spontaneous attention or alternatively, how I might better manage how I would feel if nobody…
Good. It appears that I might have made the whole thing up last time. I would certainly miss my…
I knew somebody named Dot. As a child it was a fascinating name which I learned was the nickname of choice for a Dorothy. A friend of the family that in my memory had all the drama of a good real housewives of Georgetown. I grew up in a theater family in a town with a slight British heritage
I grew up loving Monty Python, the Goonies, the goodies,
The two ronnies Peter cook and Dudley Moore beyond the Fringe I watched a lot of TV. It was how I learned everything about the outside world without actually going and looking at the outside world. TV was a more organized way to figure out how to do things the hard way.
Because in my head the easy way is harder than continuing to do it to the hard way so the hard way becomes the easy way in my head. Until the repetition makes me figure out a way to make the easy way an easy change.
And this loops with virtually every time I have to make a decision. My first choice is what happens if I don’t make this decision. Usually I go with that.
The skill I grew up with was adapting as quickly and without emotion to whatever change the universe brought at me. I became skilled at accepting and adapting the results of not making the choice but letting the choice come to me.
I threw it over the wall of tomorrow and said next as if I worked behind the counter of my universe. The info desk.
I would love to tell you my story of the universe and my universe and the multiverse I will be presenting my theory using the cloned voice of Miss melk bracket Miss bracket I can almost guarantee that the close captioning will get that wrong cuz I did for a long time but then I memorized every word of that script or I didn’t but I did good enough to remember it that way Oh Revelation whatever that two-word condition is called that makes people think they are better than they really are at not only this thing but everything and what I had was I’m as good as the next guy and everything but the truth was I really was worse than everyone else at everything however I was never consciously aware of that because smiles were everywhere when I’m around and I don’t mean that just that I’m the one creating them but I’m not around if there’s not enough smiles I’ll run away run away luckily that doesn’t happen very often but it has happened and I’ve run away as soon as the number of smiles consistently drops below a certain level I am no longer fueled to do anything Oh it actually recorded all that I’m impressed.
Ding I just realized why some of my blogs don’t have paragraph markers and they just go on and on and I was blaming the tool for having removed them because I’ve seen that before in word rep translations.
I forgot that there were certain words you could speak in this tool and it would react such as. Voice tools have been around a lot longer than the Google one but it has the resources to use a better autocorrect than some of the expensive brand name voice tools that exist however to be fair they are awesome if you learn how to use them because they include so many word commands that you can re-edit perhaps even faster than the keyboard would have allowed.
I have seen several of my customers over the years that were blind or severely impaired or worked with the blind and I have seen how they use their voice to control virtually everything in some cases and I have heard the speed that they can read when they’re doing it all the time. They listen to the words at four times speed or faster I assume. I remember being so impressed when I saw the first secretaries using IBM selectric typewritters and the speed that they could whip that steel ball around was staggering. It was more fun to watch the previous generation of typewriters and how they clacked away the letters physically pounding the paper but for sheer speed the ideal IBM selectric was a new generation of home printed documents.
The company I worked for had invented an upside-down keyboard that worked in the opposite direction of a regular keyboard in such a way that when you placed it over top of the keyboard you could then print to it and it would type for you. This was before the electric typewriter was a was able to communicate in any way with a computer. Electric typewriters came several years before digital word processors and having one that you could use to print from a computer was a pretty good deal. The more I think about that company I worked for the more I realized my memory of them may have not been the full story. I think that our president was involved in a lot of early invention in this world. From the earliest days when a chunk of their income came from modifying the radio scanners tow truck drivers used so that they could hear the police signals without the blocker signs blocker sounds.
But my memory may not be the truth I can’t tell the difference between success and perseverance and optimistic failure. If you’re smiling you are happy and I am happy and if you’re smile is fake I will not know. Until I do. And then I shift. I accept. I adapt. I support.
Ding I just added support and shift at this very moment. Hi I may workshop that. I tend to work on some of my favorite quotes for years or decades
In closing of part 1 I I am excited about having created a situation for myself in which the universe makes a lot of my choices and I accept and adapt I like that story. It fits with my universe and my philosophies. I would like to share my stories It might be interesting to incorporate a second chat software as a collar character.
A the idea of an improv-based 30 minute sitcom format of three different chat AIs designed for different things come home to this apartment block each night and talk to each other ding I realize this is not a possibility because AIs would undoubtably start telling personal stories that they have slightly modified but it may still be recognizable to people who did embarrassing things and they thought were private.
What . Nope. I can’t type fast enough.
