Most times I make an error, I know immediately because it’s obvious. Something falls over or fails. Sometimes somebody else finds out for me, which I hate.
Today I discovered my mistake this morning. It confused me at first. I couldn’t believe it. A lot of times when an error is pointed out to me I am amazed that it happened. After 50 years of life and people pointing out my errors I realized I make a lot of errors. Sadly it’s become a part of who I am and most people are very insensitive to me blaming my ADHD.
This morning when I went to feed the animals in the back chicken coop, I just discovered the door was not closed. At first I thought maybe the man of the house had come down early in the morning to check on the animals but that wasn’t the case. The petsonal method that I used to leave the blanket veils open was still in place.
I had forgotten to complete the final step of feeding, which is to go back after the pig had finished his final meal of the day, put him away under the blanket and close the door, and adjust the curtains to keep the cold out as best it can.
So the chicken’s head to fall asleep without the warmth of a closed door on a night that was probably reasonably chilly. A mid October night. Not yet frost worthy but still chillier than they would be used to. Additionally the pig had to do this without its normal blanket.
I admit to feeling guilty, and at the same time please die got away with it without anyone noticing. It’s hard to conjure up a memory of forgetting to do something. Especially something that had become a routine so I have memory of doing exactly this hundreds of times. Forgetting to do things is frustrating.
When these type of mistakes happen the first time I generally end up apologizing and saying that won’t happen again and when it does happen again invariably, I am forced to change the routine and add an extra safeguard. I’m not sure what kind of a safeguard I would add in this case so I’m going to ignore it and hope it doesn’t happen again and blame the fact that it was my birthday so I was thinking about other things. It’s a week excuse but it’s just for me and my brain and no one else so it’ll suffice.