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Day two. It doesn’t get easier..

Day two. It doesn’t get easier..

Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting and the temptation to be creative and look for ways to make it fun...

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Commuter Internet

Commuter Internet

I have a 10gb data plan on my phone. Now that I am actually leaving my home more than once a month, it was time to upgrade. I will be traveling alone for two hours each morning and returning each evening. I can look out the window some days but it was clear I'd be...

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The Conversation Room

The Conversation Room

You see an online virtual mall filled with flashy storefronts and top notch animated advertisements everywhere. You walk down the pathway in awe at how many options there are to spend money on a seperate universe. You see a new store is opening up where the old...

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Sunday Night Highlights

Sunday Night Highlights

I have discovered once again that more isn't always worth it. For me at least, sometimes I need a higher than average dose, but it is also true that less weed can be just as good for a sufficient high to get my typing or talking to myself, via these blogs. I will...

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Psssst

Psssst

I wasn't totally honest about my cold turkey. Mmmmm... I love turkey. I'm up past midnight

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Oh yeah… It’s Friday already

Oh yeah… It’s Friday already

It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've...

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Am I the same person

Am I the same person

People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I can certainly think about a few ways I've changed. I can imagine my close friends might notice even more changes. I had...

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Nice moon

Nice moon

I was distracted to the bright moon out my window. It changed the overthinking. I have so many current projects that were exciting before sleep and after waking up, I embrace my now and never give all my recorded media blogs a second draft. The joy in writing is...

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Flip Flopping isn’t a bad thing.

Flip Flopping isn’t a bad thing.

I have do much to share but let's see what gets retained long enough for the blog. I flip flop a lot. Often several times a minute as I internally debate decisions. If I stall long enough somebody else will make it. My phyciatrist has a standard procedure of always...

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Poor Voice Transcription

Poor Voice Transcription

It's never a good idea to start any lecture or essay or book, or any piece of writing or talking. Let's just say it's never good to start with; I've completely forgotten what I was going to say. When I say I've completely forgotten what I was going to say, in that...

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It’s October now.

It’s October now.

I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least....

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Sunday… Not so fun day

Sunday… Not so fun day

I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No...

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Tuesday

Tuesday

Back to work. It's the Tuesday after labour day. I started work early but it didn't last too long as I have little actual work, and I'm still fighting my home based depression. I put a desktop computer on a pop up table at the end of my bed. I don't have to get up to...

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My Regularly Scheduled Friday

My Regularly Scheduled Friday

My Regularly Scheduled Friday. Today feels like the right day. I distinctly remember each day of this week, and although I wasn't up to my usual productive levels, I did actually interact and produce some work each day. Not a lot of work and not the stuff I planned or...

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It’s chocolate melting hot

It’s chocolate melting hot

It's hard to convey how warm my workspace is. Recently I took 8 pieces of my cholate bar out of the fridge. Normally I take 4 at a time. After I'd enjoyed the first bar of 4 pieces, I reached for the second 4 and my fingers were surprised by the texture. The 4 pieces...

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An important Monday

An important Monday

It's been a bad week, and I know it was the wrong choice to remain in my bedroom, silently avoiding the confrontation that must happen today. Predicting outcomes with worry and stress is never a good plan, but when your landlord could kick you out with anger and no...

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Starting at 5pm

Starting at 5pm

It's Wednesday of the week back work week and as of 5pm, I've done nothing. I had a glorious uninterrupted restorative sleep last night during a thunderstorm. I woke up at 730 and then went back untill about 1045. Since then I've just sat around playing on my phone...

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A Good Monday

A Good Monday

I had intentions to make this a good Monday and followed through. Not the best of days, but a somewhat productive day. I started early, having learned the key to success is not falling back in bed for a second sleep. The sun wakes me around 730. I don't know why I am...

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Sunday is prep for Monday.

Sunday is prep for Monday.

I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No...

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Another week without a Thursday

Another week without a Thursday

This isn't the first time I have sincerely been surprised to discover it is Friday. I ever seem to live Thursdays anymore. I really believed today was Thursday. Another entire week has passed and I've done almost nothing but sleep, dream, and write about sleeping and...

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Things I’d like to be different

Things I’d like to be different

There are several things in my life that I would like to be different from right now. Making a list of them may be depressing because a lot of them are probably easy fixes and minor changes.   I would like to be able to shower. Right now. This instant. I would...

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Monday sunrise

Monday sunrise

Loud bright thunderstorms I stayed up. I hope the heat breaks.   I'm a little afraid, to be honest. I'm living in a trigger sensitive situation where a volatile person may lose control of his temper this morning. AT ME   I currently hear the sound of a...

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More Labour Notes before Sept 1. Monday part 2

More Labour Notes before Sept 1. Monday part 2

I keep tumbling some of my ideas around trying to believe they could work. As noted though, ideas are just the start and I'm seldom here for the work. I wondered if a personal assistant might handle reception, scheduling and Web projects. In exchange for the hobby,...

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I'm giving this one a second try. At the very least, you know, isn't quite as distracting. But I'm very easily distracted. I mean, something took me away from pizza. Not right don't go on camera when they're eating pizza. doesn't seem right for the day Really is...

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I could be President.

I could be President.

They have a saying that anyone could be president and some people laugh that off. But the truth is, anyone probably can become president. If managed by smart people. All you need to do is be some people's favorite. And they'll bulk that in and buy everything you're...

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0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I...

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Occasionally I have stopped so what could I do if I want to, could I do if I was motivated enough. If I had some assistance if I had some support. My current dream. It’s based in reality, it could be. It’s not impossible. None of my dreams are actually difficult to tackle by someone who had the ability to start and complete tasks, but I don’t. I’d love to get in motorhome and tour the country lecturing about some of my philosophies, of which I still hold on to pride.

Occasionally I have stopped so what could I do if I want to, could I do if I was motivated enough. If I had some assistance if I had some support. My current dream. It’s based in reality, it could be. It’s not impossible. None of my dreams are actually difficult to tackle by someone who had the ability to start and complete tasks, but I don’t. I’d love to get in motorhome and tour the country lecturing about some of my philosophies, of which I still hold on to pride.

The idea of stories we tell our own stories and my stop here. I don't feel motivated to expand upon my universal stories just now. It's better to cling to it, with high hopes and optimism. Say it out loud, realize how lame might be.

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The weapon against sabotage

The weapon against sabotage

I've been telling a story lately about how I used to combat bullies in my life simply by making it less fun for them. This morning I think I see that idea being used against me in a similar way. I'm uncomfortable in my new life because they are not accepting my...

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Nope. I got nothing.

Nope. I got nothing.

I'm still to high to blog effectively which makes it the best time to blog. But I can't. It's too much brain power and I keep forgetting my ideas before I can get to the keys. Goodnight part 1, blog 2. End if part 1.

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High Tea on Tuesday

High Tea on Tuesday

Have u mentioned the rock bottom practice of burning the brown spots off my collection of pipes. I don't clean, I conserve. I deckareto my usual tea party friends I was out and would be for a while. Zeppelin. I can hear my heartbeat kind of like a hirserace. I reach...

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Saturday Night Stealth

Saturday Night Stealth

The couple I find myself living with now are pretty close to perfect, almost in a Stepford wives way. They are forgiving, patient, understanding and best of all, they don't yell and fight. I feel bad of course for being me, and doing secret drugs all the while...

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More and more Lightbulbs

More and more Lightbulbs

It might be worth considering buddypress isn't the best option for my future project it's certainly has a lot of stuff available but it seems to be a little incompatible with jiffy have to be fair I don't think I need giphy as much as I thought I did it since I don't...

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Too Good and True?

Too Good and True?

There's an old saying if it's too good to be true it probably is it's an odd statement for sure because lots of things are good or true however it has come to my attention while trying to fall asleep that my current situation might just be too good to be true. True...

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I invented a game

I invented a game

Since birth, I have been inventing games.I hardly do anything in a row without turning it in to some game. It's been a mechanism of not feeling repetitious and boring When you have to be repitious and borning. Not biring... just less interesting. It occurs to me that...

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Make me a thousandaire

Make me a thousandaire

Idea. I would like to make $2000 a monh and not much more. I want to create a site to win the market. A site that is not on;y free, but BETTER than all those crap sites that don'y actually have real people or elegable.   Site Idea:  social network Craigslist JUST...

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The Grab I can’t affford

The Grab I can’t affford

Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mici g up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying...

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So I’m supposed tobe honest here, right?

So I’m supposed tobe honest here, right?

I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...

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Productive highs… Optomism.

Productive highs… Optomism.

I did a few things I don't usually do . I started new tasks and set forth ... I stalled doing real things, but I did feel productive.   I had been enjoying alternative TV programming, using an old Android TV Nexus box and it's been great. This week, I switched to...

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Seeking girlfriend. Flexible hours.

Seeking girlfriend. Flexible hours.

Seeking girlfriend. Flexible hours. Could lead to full partnership. I am lost. I never learned to live like a normal adult. I never lived alone. I don't like it. I'm bad at it. I believe I'm pretty good at being a boyfriend. I enjoy it. I'm a polite, respectful, well...

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You got a good story

You got a good story

Dwight then hot noc6 Stoner investing Tv network. The orange logo is a blunt hot spot Offer it on world and 420 community Idea.foreigh money may want presence. Indian stoner channels co-release. Hit every language to contribute and the network can be world wide. Acid...

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#torontodrugs

#torontodrugs

COMMUNITY BASED BROADCAST STUDIO#torontodrugs#canadadrugsDreams that actually came true.FROGSTAR.TV is part of the Frogstar family of related sites.KIK chat group website #torontodrugs#canadadrugs Access to this website from Canada only. This page was created to...

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The Important Friday.

The Important Friday.

It turns out we do thank God it's Friday. Old English Frīgedæg ‘day of Frigga’, named after the Germanic goddess Frigga, wife of the supreme god Odin and goddess of married love; translation of late Latin Veneris dies ‘day of Venus’, Frigga being equated with the...

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Free Million Dollar Ideas

Free Million Dollar Ideas

https://photos.app.goo.gl/WLgSBp6AYKHF5JQ47 I am already thinking I might not share this, but 15 seconds ago, I was pumped. I was going to give away some of my million dollar ideas, and I use that number to show how old I am. Any good idea is worth more than millions...

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The 15 minutes of — anything

The 15 minutes of — anything

I toked. I sat straight up and made the choice to get out of bed and go to the computer. For years (I thought) I've been getting high some nights in bed, and whether or not I start to write or record is not always easy. Sometimes I just get high and watch TV. But in...

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The Wednesday that was Monday

The Wednesday that was Monday

I woke up from another dream at around 7am today, a Wednesday, but it was a fresh awake wake-up. The first I've had since my medication screw up almost 3 weeks ago. I stood up, and didn't lay back down again. I sat at the computer and started my morning work routine...

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