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Sleep issues solved? I am an idiot

I'm not really sure that my sleep issues are resolved. It does however appear that I may have found at least part of the problem. I still have constipation issues, and I'm still peeing more than I should but last night was particularly rough. I was only getting about...

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SmackDown Day

Today's Rooster adventures were a little different. Due to some sleep issues I'm working out, I slept in and didn't get downstairs till 745 instead of my usual 720/730ish I used to start even earlier but decided the neighborhood probably benefitted from the extra 30...

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Best laid plans vs Chicken logic

Best laid plans vs Chicken logic

When I can out the door for the afternoon feed, the weak chickens that linger in different circles are always first to detect me, and the waddle towards me. Over the past couple of days I've tried to death feed them their own portion before the rooster and his harem...

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Mojo and Me

Mojo and Me

I learned the name of the rooster's mojo but I prefer calling it the rooster anyway because calling it by its name implies some form of relationship. I suppose in a way we do have an adversarial relationship he wants to attack me and I want to avoid being attacked. He...

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False Positive. It’s an Apple Fritter

False Positive. It’s an Apple Fritter

Glazed donuts often have a timeline of freshness that begins right away. Tonight I was offered three McDonald mini donuts. One was a springle. These are yeast donuts and ideally should be consumed within an hour or three after purchase. I prefer the longer lasting...

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Skip skip the dishes

Skip skip the dishes

I don't like to complain. Having said that, I don't like having a reason to complain because I don't like to complain and having a good reason puts me in a spot. Today I ordered the only hamburger in the city that's 1 lb. It's only available from Skip the dishes so I...

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I did the thing. It was anti-climatic

I did the thing. It was anti-climatic

After staring at the emergency mental health hotline for several weeks I paused a movie and made the call. It's not a helpful number but they did give me another number so now I start the loop again. Whenever I say I did a thing I am reminded of a really cool book I...

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Why do I make plans?

Why do I make plans?

Perhaps plans is the wrong idea. I set mini goals for each day. Some of them are extremely simple like don't forget to feed the fish. This morning I forgot to feed the fish. Some of them of course are more complex. A task that I see had been meaning to do, a customer...

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1 Point Rooster.

1 Point Rooster.

I'd fed them. I was posing no threat.i was almost inside the house but I showed my back to the Rooster and somehow it magically transported 40 feet and lunged. It was so fast and startling I honestly don't remember the details. It didn't make contact as my telec3s...

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The magical door.

Apparently I neglected to barricade the front door after I checked for the mail. It's probably about the 3rd or 4th time I've done this in 2 years but unfortunately it is a hotspot paranoid worry that gets me a lecture each time. He can leave it unbarricated not a...

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Today’s Stupid Mistake

Today’s Stupid Mistake

I kind of think I was always this way but I can't be sure because of the way my memory works. I make stupid mistakes, I knock things over, and I don't foresee the consequences of things I do before I do them. Today's example was quite unfortunate and I can't get away...

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Differences from yesterday’s Blog

It's become clear that there is very little that is interesting about my tasks. Blogging everyday about feeding the chickens, avoiding the rooster, feeding the chickens again and letting the dogs out, and then going to feed the pig just as his owner comes home and...

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The new dilemma. Shit now or

As soon as I did it I knew I made the wrong decision and now I'm not sure what to do next. I've been having constipation issues and there are three main types of laxatives. I've gone through a process of the first type and didn't really help with my issue. Yesterday I...

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I amaze myself sometimes.

I amaze myself sometimes.

I'm honestly having a hard time understanding how to today is only day three. I'm pretty sure I wrote about yesterday being day three the entire day. Thinking back I guess I can only come up with the memories of two days so somehow yesterday I thought it was day three...

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The cat and the cock

The cat and the cock

Rough start to the day. My first official work day where I am in charge of the animals morning afternoon and evening and potentially already lost a cat. It's freaking me out. I did everything fine but you know how easy it is for me to get distracted and I didn't fully...

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The Monday before I have to pay attention again.

The Monday before I have to pay attention again.

I'm feeling more stressed than I need to be,but that doesn't really help. Then again, my stress has always been pretty mild. Since I go with the flow about everything, worrying about the future is a useless pastime. He starts a job tomorrow that will take him out of...

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The magical proximity sensor

I can't even try to get away with simple things. First look, he'd way back at the end of the property. I try my thing and he's right there, telling me why I shouldn't or can't. It's uncanny

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The new black

The new black

I had a bath today and I'm going out in a little while but my room and my bedding and other things there still smell so I wanted to put on fresh clothes I don't really have. But I do have a prison uniform so that's what I wore after my bath. I'm walking around the...

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Late life revelations

Late life revelations

I never actually notice how little I do in life, effort-wise. I have used my intelligence to evaluate every situation and figure out the best way to do the absolute least, while keeping the friend or colleague happy. I avoid anything I can if it looks difficult I just...

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Year One vs Now.

Year One vs Now.

I want to get this task done. I'll have the leave the house, takes buses, talk to people etc. I pull up the pipe, take a hit, put on some music and leave the house. That was what I liked about this drug. Energy, Focus, confidence and the ability to start and finish a...

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The salt shaker is holding up my day

I can't find my salt shaker. Got to be around here somewhere but the floor is rather messy. Without it I don't want to eat my beautiful fresh white meat chicken. It's one of the few foods I don't like without salt. Tomatoes, and corn are two others but I can get by...

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My Insomnia isn’t Insomnia

My Insomnia isn’t Insomnia

I had not slept well the last three nights mostly be a of my stupidity and an old addict trick. If I'm not asleep by now, why not just stay up and try tomorrow. Howver as morning ce closer, I was almost tired so I did more with good intentions of cutting the streak. I...

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I wish I could say it’s not my fault

I wish I could say it’s not my fault

Technically of course I can say it's not my fault but that wouldn't be true. It's 3:30 in the morning on Wednesday and I made the conscious decision to get high again. Reason I was teasing that it's not my fault is that I was going to be up anyway and it was driving...

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Social Media Life Stages

Social Media Life Stages

I'm not sure if this is just me. But I suspect not. The way we use social media has changed, subtly without much notice Bering paid. It's a fascinating burst of unexpected culture shock that is a fascinating spectator sport. I mean the whole way the plant reacted I...

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The boy in the box

The boy in the box

I can remember every bedroom I ever lived in. It's where I spent most of my life. Right from age 7 when we moved and I got my first bedroom.I attended dinners and chat with my family as I left the house or come home, but with the exceptions of things like game night,...

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Sickness update

I got some xlax today thanks to a kind donation. I'm not sure how well it will work on this brand of weeks old dehydrated constipation but I just took one at 8pm so we'll see over the next two days. Apparently some of my dreams may have been fever dreams which are bad...

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Dream Update

I've been sick, but invisibly sick. I have severe constipation that has gone on much longer than I should have let it. Last week there was a bit of a reprieve and I let a medium shit through the blockade. I chose to ignore it again and now it's probably been x days....

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It almost looks planned. Horrid Planning

It's 4am and I woke up abruptly. The fridge at critical levels of chocolate and water. I use both regularly each day but always seem forum low on weekends when I'm LSO out of money. It's Saturday morning and I have 3 gulps and 5 bites of chocolate. 4am is a tough time...

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It’s Friday already.

It’s Friday already.

This seemed like a fast week. I got very little accomplished and saw no progress on any of my short term goals. No progress to show on anything really. I got high and complained or pondered. It was also a week of constipation, dehydration and sadness. The constipation...

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I’ve watched Netflix

I’ve watched Netflix

I think I may have watched everything on Netflix. Not literally everything, but everything I think I'd like. There are a lot of really enjoyable series on the service but when you live alone with full days to watch TV, eventually there isn't much left. On network TV,...

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Health Update

Health Update

I have not felt right for a week or so. I thought it was various things but as I sit here on the toilet logging I realized. I've been peeing more than usual but not unloading and solid. It's gotten to the point where it's effecting my thought clarity and focus. I...

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Starting strong and early

Starting strong and early

I decided today would be a good day. I wasted my Monday, but there are things that need doing. The sun beams through my window and I wake. Instead of pulling my hat over my eyes and rolling over for more sleep, I get up. I prepare a couple of fine lines for today....

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One day, other than today.

There are a few things that I would like to block about. Generally speaking by blog after smoking a little bit of weed. This is the case today. I will not be blogging about any of these serious topics that I really want to blog about because I'm afraid. I don't really...

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Nobody is watching

I wonder how many teenage boys, or adults for that matter, are spending a good portion of their earnings to pay for women to talk to them. It doesn't even have to be sexual content or nudity although they're certainly a lot of that, you just have to pay to talk to...

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It’s the least I can do

It’s the least I can do

I always found that statement offensive. It's telling somebody you're doing the absolute least amount of effort possible. If I could do nothing. I would have. Around here, I tend to do the least I can. I stay in bed and get up once a day to refill my water and use the...

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Let me try this today

Let me try this today

I'm always experimenting with life, and better ways to get through it. Today I decided to wake up and stay up like I used to. The sun rolls in and by 7:10 or so I'm up and eating chocolate chip cookies. I'll pick up my phone and go through all my social media, I log...

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Checkpoint Avoidance.

Checkpoint Avoidance.

I woke up first today at 6:30 a.m. feeling pretty good. I took my pill and sat up thinking this might be a good time to actually wake up and start doing things. When I woke up the second time today it was 7:30 a.m. and I was still feeling good but the sun was very...

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Being sick in 2022

Being sick in 2022

I got sick last week and am still recovering. Every time a symptom shows up, everyone starts to wonder if it is covid-19? My throat is super soar from dehydration and weed smoking. It Hurst. A nice chicken pasta would be ideal.

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I hate to die coughing

I hate to die coughing

I'm not ready to die and be judged just yet, bit I am certain there are a few ways I don't want to die. However it happens I don't wait it be the thing people know about me. Oh! That's the guy that was found naked at a Fenny Parking lot with a car full of Otters. The...

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Funny OOPS of the night

As I was laying in bed on my phone, I saw my main computer was rebooting. 40 minutes later and it's time to give up. I shut down. However, as it is shtting down I realize my computer wasn't crashed or rebooting. The one I remotely connected to was, 40 minutes ago, and...

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The Beaver Dam

The Beaver Dam

Others may call it a bottleneck.Take 2.There are so many things in my bedroom, and by extension my entire life that need to show progress. Some are what you would consider simple tasks, but to somebody with my brain type,any of those important tasks all have steps....

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Pass GO. Collect deals.

Pass GO. Collect deals.

I'm on a free train ride to Toronto today, and by free. I mean $50 in Uber fees to get to the train station and back. The train ride from Niagara to Toronto is free though. There is a useless transit app trying to get my attention by offering this ticket in exchange...

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A new low.

A new low.

I don't really consider suicide very often as a serious option. I did today, but brushed it to the side. I finally life too fascinating to give up on. Too much curiosity about how things will turn out. I used to say the best non-religious reason for not committing...

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May was a decline month

When I look back on June, I'm not pleased. It was more of the same from a different location. I'm now laying in bed back in Niagara dehydrated and starving. Depressed. High. Unmotivated. Sad. May was supposed to be exciting new life and job progress. I wanted change....

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Passing the sweet spot.

Passing the sweet spot.

In an attempt to be more productive without adderall, I ingest a certain amount of meth each morning. It's a very subtle incline and it's easy to miss the sweet spot where you can still think enough to do the job and have the stamina to continue and the focus to...

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Thursday Morning

Thursday Morning

My bedroom clock somehow lost almost an hour while I was away. Unusual because it's never really needed adjustment before. Perhaps it slows when the battery weakens. I guess that makes sense. Some things just stop working when the power gets low and others work...

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Unnecessary Highness

Unnecessary Highness

I seem to have reached a blah plateau tonight. Too high to care. Still dehydrated and bacteria tongue. Didn't eat any real food. Just bagels and chocolate. No interest in pornography or hypnosis. Maybe one of those brainwash videos finally worked. I'm avoiding the...

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