I tried for a while yesterday before remembering I hadn’t taken my Paxil in two days. My ADHD medication was also not the usual dose. A lot of stressed were hitting me hard all at once and I just broke down.

Not all of them are resolved but I did feel better by the end of the day after one mild win.

It’s a new day now and it started at 4am with a customer complaint. My server was down due to a combination of low funds and human error on the part of my server people. What should have been a 15 minute fix at 4am ended up being resolved at 7am after several customers called.

The issue is made worse by the recent Facebook problem which has removed me from many client contacts in Messenger. It also means I didn’t complete another upset customer’s website before she woke up because my server was down. I’m really taking a beating this week.

As of now, I’m living today without meth, on the last Paxil pill and I’m ok. No chocolate and only a banana and plain white bread for breakfast but oddly doing fine so far. 5 customers complained but all is ok so far.

Things I would like to do. 

1. Move frogstar.ca to one of the alternate users on my server so it stays up when others go down.

2. Convert all customers to either cPanel access or preferably individual accounts. It will cost more but I could pre buy two years service for less than one invoice.

3. Die quickly before illness finds me. Find a way to make money and live somewhere that doesn’t bother other people do much.

4. Eat. I am starving and get paid tomorrow less than I owe. Substantially.

End of part one. Hopefully the rest of the day goes ok.