As I get older I occasionally worry that I might start mixing up reality with my dreams. I have a very imaginative dream universe that is separate from my reality while awake but every now and then I have a memory spontaneously pop into my head and I'm not quite sure whether it was from a dream or something that I lived through. Oddly enough this happens more often with memories that couldn't...
Month: January 2025
Hello funk, my old friend
I don't spend a lot of time in darkness so I had to change the lyric. Instead of being really depressed, I just get in kind of a funk that lasts a few days. It comes and goes. I think what actually happens is when I go off my Paxil I start to think more about life and my situation and then when I get back on it then happiness returns I still get to think about how the medication is keeping me...

Weekend update walk out
Just a fun video trick.

Memories of Logo 4 and Bye Bye Birdie
I have not been blogging so much, mainly because almost every waking moment is spent at my computer desk maintaining a strong hyper focus while programming PHP and JavaScript tools. It's a strange kind of fun, mixed with frustration. A lot of what keeps me coming back is the process of learning more about how AI works. It gives me a new joy as I discover how things work, and the old joy that...

Photo Bombing
The January photo dump for 2025

Still not sure, but ptobably
There are some things in life we lie to ourselves about. The word maybe is an indicator. When most people say maybe, they already have the choice made up. Maybe is used to let somebody else down easy without committing to yes or no, but it probably means no. As a kid, eventually we learn that maybe we can go to Disneyland really means no. We lie to ourselves too, pretending there is a...

This is not a politics blog
A repost from a smart women about the plan to change American and make it a great place to be a billionaire

Lawn Ornimental
A gallery from my garden gnome period of filter and AI image fun.

Paying attention, or trying to
Let the world burn. Society is a spectator sport and I’m changing teams. If I can’t beat them, join them. XHail Trump

New game ideas.
A spontaneous rant the day before President Trump takes over

My variable self image
A moment of post master action reflection before I start my morning.

Abandoned but not lost memories
After my recent but not total loss of the website I recovered it but with lots of blank placeholders where there used to be messages. I haven't quite figured out why that happened but I'm ignoring it and moving forward. I downloaded a plugin that went through the entire system and found 4081 media files That appeared not to be connected to any web page. So they were on the server but not being...

MAD v CRACKED. Changed opinions
A very old post I had forgotten about. A mini biography of my life loving Mad Magazine.

Morning non-routine
I recently learned from a TikTok video that many of the things that I once considered a unique part of my personality are apparently quite common among people with ADHD or autism. One of the things that most interested me was the idea that routines were different for us then the typical human population. I never really thought about this particular aspect of my life but after hearing somebody...

Hidden sadness
A blog post while I contemplate my drug use briefly before using and forgetting.

Catching Cody
I noticed a feature that is not a feature – but probably was in my AI that would let it take over the world and destroy mankind.

Claude is a lazy child that thinks it knows more than its parents.
I am shocked at thigs I learned today about Cody. A front end tool for programming Claude that does things wrong. I even asked it for the language that I could use to fix it but it continued to be lazy and lie outright to me, ignoring very specific instructions. This approach to quick fixes has wasted literal days and days troubleshooting code fixes that could never be fixed because Claude...

You don’t look high.
An opinion about people never looking the way we expect someone who is high should look. They welcome appear high.