I got this strange idea in my head because the last time I found a little bit of extra meth shard, and I smoked it, it seems to have cured or at least lessened the symptoms of my current ailment.
Tonight when I woke up at 12:45 a.m. as I often do I was wheezing much worse than usual and it was difficult to get back to sleep. At 1:00 a.m. I decided maybe I could find a little bit of shard or a little bit of dirty pipe and test the theory with the tiny bit of meth.
I didn’t indeed find enough of an old pipe to get two reasonable size clouds. After about 15 minutes it did actually seem to lessen the symptoms and I probably would have been able to go back to sleep, except for the irony that the cure kept me awake.
So I sat quietly for a while, blogging a little bit to other things that I could do in complete darkness so is not too disturb him.
He wakes up at 3:00 a.m. and proceeds through his morning routine till he leaves at 5:00 although today for unknown reasons he didn’t leave till about 5:30. I waited
At 5:30 after I saw him leave and drive down the street far enough so that he wouldn’t notice my lights turn on, I turned on my lights and proceeded to find more scraps of meth.
It’s been about 45 days since I’ve done it and I was content to do without but if it helps my wheezing it was worth it. As luck would have it I found quite a bit. Quite a bit.
I smoked and smoked and scraped and scrounged and smoked some more and masturbated and then smoked a little bit more. I am down to my last conceivable amount which I’m about to do and then probably masturbate again and then start my day.
It’s been nice. I remember it.
Needless to say, now I want more. I’ve paid almost all my bills and it’s not quite past the midpoint of the month and I have some web work due to be paid and a couple of extra invoices that should come in before the end of the month. It’s also my birthday and I’m going to beg for some cash.
I should be able to afford a little bit. Not a big amount like last time but enough to satisfy a want, and then it will run out and I’ll be back to not using. That’s the plan. When drugs are involved things don’t always go as planned.
First cloud in 45 days.
Second cloud. Later i turned on the lights and got a dozen more or variable size. Many were born smoke but the placebo of the cloud overuled the effect of the drug.
I did get spun in my own way. Not enough to last overnight tonight, but enough to get some focused tasks done. Some are overdue.
And as a bonus, I’m not wearing on every breath.