Orange Shirt Blogs

Orange Shirt Blogs

Warning: Heavy Drug use

Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal space that I don’t share with everyone. It includes honest blogging about my struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.

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The most recent non-drug related text and video posts

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

#proudworthy

I wrote most of the song today. I'm going to say I wrote a song today because the amount of assistance that I got was after the fact and it was just mainly to get the beats right so that the verses bounced and you could tap your finger to them. So a few words here and...

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

Sadness isn’t depression

I've been experiencing more short moments of unhappiness lately. There easily distracted from so they don't build into a full-on depression. There are certain things in my life that I know are not ideal and if I spend time thinking about them they would approach...

Bulk up.

Bulk up.

The advantage to buying drugs in larger quantities is a better price and not just a little bit better price but significantly better. Drug dealers make money on the people who buy little bits like grams or less sometimes. What they used to call dime bags.  There are...

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

Weekend thoughts

For a brief moment this afternoon I considered whether I am bi-polar and didn't know it. I don't think so. My ups and downs are more related to food and drugs, but while coming out of a recent bed session where I wasn't responding to.important clients for a few weeks...

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

The next of the last

Yes, it's another consecutive post about extending my drug use mornings one more day after thinking I couldn't do it again. I've become skilled at this by now. My father used to tell stories about how long his family could make a tiny slab of butter last and I never...

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

I briefly forgot about sunlight

It's not that I forgot sunlight exists or even that I don't get as much sunlight as I used to, but what I forgot is how much sunlight effects my energy and mood. I just don't function as well without the sun and I suppose vitamin d.  My days lately have included some...

I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective

Great wank

It was a lot of effort and several platforms and drugs that are scarce but at 7:15 I finally came... Up with stupid idea to post about it. Ignore this.

Hair ,-The nightmare.

Autistic User Manual

Late night blog post that should have been longer but I lost the energy halfway through. The original idea was I wanted to talk about the concept of creating a user manual for autistic people and their friends and family.

Afraid to be famous

Afraid to be famous

[Verse] I like to think a lot, mostly inside my own head I analyze life in my blog, but sharing is what I dread. Recently discovering the joy in writing, putting those thoughts into a song. But I have fear of success, because what if I'm wrong. I'm afraid to be...

Morning routine #23B

Morning routine #23B

That's a meetup number but it represents the concept of having so many different ways to wake up and start my day at some point I should start organizing by name or by number. Today I will woke up at about 5:15 and I've been using the tablet on my bed surf the web...