Orange Shirt Blogs

Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal space for OrangeJeff that I don't share with everyone. It includes honest blogging about my struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general. It also includes a lot of…

Orange Shirt Blogs

Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal diary and gallery for OrangeJeff that I don’t share with everyone. It includes struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.

READ ME FIRST

READ ME FIRST

A previously secret collection of over a decade of journals and blogs from the mind of Orange Jeff telling the honest stories of my mental illness, brain...

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Friday night in bed by 8pm

Friday night in bed by 8pm

I probably won't get to sleep till after midnight but I rest. I had plans to go out tonight but instead spent my money on food a few other things. I'm on a tight budget this month trying to make all...

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Not allowed to talk about it

Not allowed to talk about it

I'm not supposed to use the word rats out loud in the backyard or in my blog. We don't talk about it. But I do see them. And one just ran by my feet just now which is the closest interaction I've...

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I tried something new today

I tried something new today

Technically, I'm trying it right now. I bought some Walmart house brand fruit filled Apple cinnamon doesn't have a name beyond that made with real fruit wow ingredients apple and 40 other things....

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War stories

War stories

Since I don't have children, it follows that I don't have grandchildren so I won't sit around when I'm old telling my war stories to anyone who will listen. That's what blogs are for. No one has to...

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Internal Dialogue of my brain

Internal Dialogue of my brain

3am. You seem anxious. We'll, I heard a rumour you were going to not use meth today. Let me make a case against that. (Falls back asleep) 4:00am Ok, so I'm assuming that nonsense about quitting...

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I guess the war is over.

I guess the war is over.

I'm not saying that the rooster trusts me now or that we have any kind of relationship but it does seem as though he's less confrontational now. He's finally figured out I'm the one that's feeding...

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The pig’s meal

The pig’s meal

The pig eats quite well. This stew is not for the humans of the house. It is put together in a huge pot that lasts about a week as I scoop out a portion each night and it gets combined with four...

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Cheat Day

Cheat Day

When people on a diet want a piece of cake they declare a cheat day. There doesn't seem to be any rule except that all rules are out the window. I've been setting very tiny goals for myself each day...

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It shat on my hat.

It shat on my hat.

I was in my room the other day making videos as I am want to do and I realized I couldn't find my orange hat. In Canada we call them toques and I'm not sure I know how to spell it. In the states...

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Summer Falls by the Falls

Summer Falls by the Falls

I had a fall this morning. It was scary shit for a short while because it was a multi-stage fall knocking over various things as I tried to save myself on the way down. I don't remember what started...

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Monday morning dog surprise

Monday morning dog surprise

Today was a special Monday, or at least it is supposed to be. It is the day I planned to finally throw out the secret garbage I've been keeping in my room for far too long. I call it secret garbage...

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Sunday movie night

Sunday movie night

It's 3:14 in the afternoon on a Sunday. Pie time I sometimes call it although there It's almost never any pie. I miss pie. A good old-fashioned cafeteria style apple pie is hard to find these days....

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More chicken shit to deal with.

More chicken shit to deal with.

So the rooster has figured out this none shall pass power that he has When he standing where I need to be and I can't get by. We waited out As I inch and inch. Gaining ground until such time as I...

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Blockade

Blockade

Today's adventures with the rooster involve them hanging out by the door. I don't like this. They want to be fed earlier and I'm already feeding them an hour earlier than I was last week....

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Experiments in Crossposting

Experiments in Crossposting

Recently I started blogging a lot more about life and my simple day job feeding the backyard farm animals. Not mentioning my meth habit. I've always been a little internally proud of my writing...

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Rooster Friday

Rooster Friday

Not much to report him the human versus rooster wars today. Ever since our epic battle he seems to understand that I need to get to the food area to feed them and today he let me walk by him back...

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Being Old and Wise (and Grumpy)

There is a stereotype of old grumpy men spouting off opinions about how horrible today's music is or the clothing styles. My father's favorite thing to gripe about was how fast things were moving...

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Sleep issues solved? I am an idiot

I'm not really sure that my sleep issues are resolved. It does however appear that I may have found at least part of the problem. I still have constipation issues, and I'm still peeing more than I...

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SmackDown Day

SmackDown Day

Today's Rooster adventures were a little different. Due to some sleep issues I'm working out, I slept in and didn't get downstairs till 745 instead of my usual 720/730ish I used to start even...

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Best laid plans vs Chicken logic

Best laid plans vs Chicken logic

When I can out the door for the afternoon feed, the weak chickens that linger in different circles are always first to detect me, and the waddle towards me. Over the past couple of days I've tried...

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Mojo and Me

Mojo and Me

I learned the name of the rooster's mojo but I prefer calling it the rooster anyway because calling it by its name implies some form of relationship. I suppose in a way we do have an adversarial...

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False Positive. It’s an Apple Fritter

False Positive. It’s an Apple Fritter

Glazed donuts often have a timeline of freshness that begins right away. Tonight I was offered three McDonald mini donuts. One was a springle. These are yeast donuts and ideally should be consumed...

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Skip skip the dishes

Skip skip the dishes

I don't like to complain. Having said that, I don't like having a reason to complain because I don't like to complain and having a good reason puts me in a spot. Today I ordered the only hamburger...

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I did the thing. It was anti-climatic

I did the thing. It was anti-climatic

After staring at the emergency mental health hotline for several weeks I paused a movie and made the call. It's not a helpful number but they did give me another number so now I start the loop...

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Why do I make plans?

Why do I make plans?

Perhaps plans is the wrong idea. I set mini goals for each day. Some of them are extremely simple like don't forget to feed the fish. This morning I forgot to feed the fish. Some of them of course...

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1 Point Rooster.

1 Point Rooster.

I'd fed them. I was posing no threat.i was almost inside the house but I showed my back to the Rooster and somehow it magically transported 40 feet and lunged. It was so fast and startling I...

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The magical door.

Apparently I neglected to barricade the front door after I checked for the mail. It's probably about the 3rd or 4th time I've done this in 2 years but unfortunately it is a hotspot paranoid worry...

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Today’s Stupid Mistake

Today’s Stupid Mistake

I kind of think I was always this way but I can't be sure because of the way my memory works. I make stupid mistakes, I knock things over, and I don't foresee the consequences of things I do before...

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Differences from yesterday’s Blog

Differences from yesterday’s Blog

It's become clear that there is very little that is interesting about my tasks. Blogging everyday about feeding the chickens, avoiding the rooster, feeding the chickens again and letting the dogs...

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The new dilemma. Shit now or

As soon as I did it I knew I made the wrong decision and now I'm not sure what to do next. I've been having constipation issues dand there are three main types of laxatives. I've gone through a...

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I amaze myself sometimes.

I amaze myself sometimes.

I'm honestly having a hard time understanding how to today is only day three. I'm pretty sure I wrote about yesterday being day three the entire day. Thinking back I guess I can only come up with...

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Day two. It doesn’t get easier..

Day two. It doesn’t get easier..

Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting...

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The cat and the cock

The cat and the cock

Rough start to the day. My first official work day where I am in charge of the animals morning afternoon and evening and potentially already lost a cat. It's freaking me out. I did everything fine...

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Same accident. Different door

Same accident. Different door

So as of 8:14 a.m. on Tuesday August 2nd I am possibly missing a cat, or not one may have escaped outside which is really bad for at least one or two of the cats and reasonably bad for the third. If...

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The magical proximity sensor

I can't even try to get away with simple things. First look, he'd way back at the end of the property. I try my thing and he's right there, telling me why I shouldn't or can't. It's uncanny

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The new black

The new black

I had a bath today and I'm going out in a little while but my room and my bedding and other things there still smell so I wanted to put on fresh clothes I don't really have. But I do have a prison...

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Late life revelations

Late life revelations

I never actually notice how little I do in life, effort-wise. I have used my intelligence to evaluate every situation and figure out the best way to do the absolute least, while keeping the friend...

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Beginner Mistake on an important Friday

Beginner Mistake on an important Friday

A lot of this week went right, despite the underlying sicknesses (plural) that I ignore to dangerous abuse levels. Recently I discovered my pill bottle on the floor next to my bed. That's where I...

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Year One vs Now.

Year One vs Now.

I want to get this task done. I'll have the leave the house, takes buses, talk to people etc. I pull up the pipe, take a hit, put on some music and leave the house. That was what I liked about this...

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