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Too late. The bed is rocking. I can't stop the panic doom rocking my body back and forth. My mind is flooded with doom at every angle. Two customers mad. Three actually. One may not be easily solved. I'm out of legal meds. I'm out of illegal meds  im out of food and...

There is a type of memory we all forget so we'll, we can't even remember it if it is describe in detail and hour later. Dreams are fleeting do rapidly, this opening paragraph may be enough to make me forget. I had a wiper ofvsvdetailebstory dream with flas forward and...

I wrote most of the song today. I'm going to say I wrote a song today because the amount of assistance that I got was after the fact and it was just mainly to get the beats right so that the verses bounced and you could tap your finger to them. So a few words here and...

I've been experiencing more short moments of unhappiness lately. There easily distracted from so they don't build into a full-on depression. There are certain things in my life that I know are not ideal and if I spend time thinking about them they would approach...

The advantage to buying drugs in larger quantities is a better price and not just a little bit better price but significantly better. Drug dealers make money on the people who buy little bits like grams or less sometimes. What they used to call dime bags.  There are...

just some thoughts in my morning routine

For a brief moment this afternoon I considered whether I am bi-polar and didn't know it. I don't think so. My ups and downs are more related to food and drugs, but while coming out of a recent bed session where I wasn't responding to.important clients for a few weeks...

Yes, it's another consecutive post about extending my drug use mornings one more day after thinking I couldn't do it again. I've become skilled at this by now. My father used to tell stories about how long his family could make a tiny slab of butter last and I never...

It's not that I forgot sunlight exists or even that I don't get as much sunlight as I used to, but what I forgot is how much sunlight effects my energy and mood. I just don't function as well without the sun and I suppose vitamin d.  My days lately have included some...

It was a lot of effort and several platforms and drugs that are scarce but at 7:15 I finally came... Up with stupid idea to post about it. Ignore this.