Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal diary and gallery for OrangeJeff that I don’t share with everyone. It includes struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.
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A previously secret collection of over a decade of journals and blogs from the mind of Orange Jeff telling the honest stories of my mental illness, brain...
Friday night in bed by 8pm
I probably won't get to sleep till after midnight but I rest. I had plans to go out tonight but instead spent my money on food a few other things. I'm on a tight budget this month trying to make all...
Cross Promotion
I’m not certain why I’m posting this because the orangejeff.com website really isn’t ready yet.
Cheat Day
When people on a diet want a piece of cake they declare a cheat day. There doesn't seem to be any rule except that all rules are out the window. I've been setting very tiny goals for myself each day...
Sunday movie night
It's 3:14 in the afternoon on a Sunday. Pie time I sometimes call it although there It's almost never any pie. I miss pie. A good old-fashioned cafeteria style apple pie is hard to find these days....
Second Life
Second Life is a simulation of our universe except better
Snapshots
I liked this photo booth filter
I think I’m losing my mind
This is a quick cut video of various photos of me not using drugs.
Turd Watch 2022
8:48 am. A big solid one. Hard. No meds last night. Not satisfying but needed.
Being Old and Wise (and Grumpy)
There is a stereotype of old grumpy men spouting off opinions about how horrible today's music is or the clothing styles. My father's favorite thing to gripe about was how fast things were moving...
Sleep issues solved? I am an idiot
I'm not really sure that my sleep issues are resolved. It does however appear that I may have found at least part of the problem. I still have constipation issues, and I'm still peeing more than I...
Wednesday Video Update
When a snapchat follower asked me what was new, I replied with this video.
I did the thing. It was anti-climatic
After staring at the emergency mental health hotline for several weeks I paused a movie and made the call. It's not a helpful number but they did give me another number so now I start the loop...
Why do I make plans?
Perhaps plans is the wrong idea. I set mini goals for each day. Some of them are extremely simple like don't forget to feed the fish. This morning I forgot to feed the fish. Some of them of course...
Shit, I shit
1 Point Rooster.
I'd fed them. I was posing no threat.i was almost inside the house but I showed my back to the Rooster and somehow it magically transported 40 feet and lunged. It was so fast and startling I...
The magical door.
Apparently I neglected to barricade the front door after I checked for the mail. It's probably about the 3rd or 4th time I've done this in 2 years but unfortunately it is a hotspot paranoid worry...
Today’s Stupid Mistake
I kind of think I was always this way but I can't be sure because of the way my memory works. I make stupid mistakes, I knock things over, and I don't foresee the consequences of things I do before...
Differences from yesterday’s Blog
It's become clear that there is very little that is interesting about my tasks. Blogging everyday about feeding the chickens, avoiding the rooster, feeding the chickens again and letting the dogs...
The new dilemma. Shit now or
As soon as I did it I knew I made the wrong decision and now I'm not sure what to do next. I've been having constipation issues dand there are three main types of laxatives. I've gone through a...
I amaze myself sometimes.
I'm honestly having a hard time understanding how to today is only day three. I'm pretty sure I wrote about yesterday being day three the entire day. Thinking back I guess I can only come up with...
Day two. It doesn’t get easier..
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting...
The cat and the cock
Rough start to the day. My first official work day where I am in charge of the animals morning afternoon and evening and potentially already lost a cat. It's freaking me out. I did everything fine...
Same accident. Different door
So as of 8:14 a.m. on Tuesday August 2nd I am possibly missing a cat, or not one may have escaped outside which is really bad for at least one or two of the cats and reasonably bad for the third. If...
The Monday before I have to pay attention again.
I'm feeling more stressed than I need to be,but that doesn't really help. Then again, my stress has always been pretty mild. Since I go with the flow about everything, worrying about the future is a...
The magical proximity sensor
I can't even try to get away with simple things. First look, he'd way back at the end of the property. I try my thing and he's right there, telling me why I shouldn't or can't. It's uncanny
The new black
I had a bath today and I'm going out in a little while but my room and my bedding and other things there still smell so I wanted to put on fresh clothes I don't really have. But I do have a prison...
I should be asleep but I need to be awake.
Thank you meth.
Late life revelations
I never actually notice how little I do in life, effort-wise. I have used my intelligence to evaluate every situation and figure out the best way to do the absolute least, while keeping the friend...
Beginner Mistake on an important Friday
A lot of this week went right, despite the underlying sicknesses (plural) that I ignore to dangerous abuse levels. Recently I discovered my pill bottle on the floor next to my bed. That's where I...
Year One vs Now.
I want to get this task done. I'll have the leave the house, takes buses, talk to people etc. I pull up the pipe, take a hit, put on some music and leave the house. That was what I liked about this...